As I sit here at my desk in my home office, intending to ‘get creative’ and Post my Blog for week 10 of the MKE, I am struggling with all the conflicting priorities in my head.
This week was supposed to be a bit of a break because of the Thanksgiving Holiday, but I can’t stop the forward progress, or I will slide back to the mindset I am in this program to shed.
Although, as I sit here exhausted from a shit-ass day at work, thinking about what to write, I am dwelling on how simple life used to be…when I was “mediocre“…and I just want to go back there (and get some rest).
Am I too old for this shit or what? (The Herald of my Hero’s Journey)
I know that when I finish this Post, I will take a shower and then start my nightly routine before I can even consider sleeping.
That nightly routine consists of reading my Promise and Service Cards, reading my Definite Major Purpose (which is still work in progress), reading Scroll 3 in The Greatest Salesman, reading The Guy In The Glass, reading the affirmation ‘I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy‘ (with enthusiasm if possible), and closing it out with a Prayer to Jesus. Then I slip into bed and turn on my DVD player with Earl Nightingale’s The Strangest Secret.
Que the Alarm, it’s morning, after about 6 hours sleep, if I am lucky, because I stayed-up too late, or I just got a rotten night’s sleep thinking about work, or the bills, or my 80 year old Mother.
Now ‘I get to’ do my morning routine, after wolfing a couple waffles, and while drinking my Coffee, I read all the things I read before bed, but I add The Seven Laws of the Mind, The Blueprint Builder and the lesson in The Master Key.
And because I really need to get my day started right, I write 3 things I am grateful for, and read at least 2 pages in The Success System That Never Fails by W. Clement Stone.
Then to stay in congruency with my Personal Pivotal Need of True Health I do my push-ups and biceps curls to get my heart rate up, and maybe break a sweat to release some of the toxins from my previous shit-ass day. And all this happens before 7AM.
I highly doubt that anyone is still reading this Bla-Post, but if you’ve hung in this far, just know that I appreciate you for hearing me out, and indulging me this rant.
So to continue ‘The Experience’, (forgive the crude statement) I shit, shower and shave, so I can get dressed and ready for work. This is, of course, assuming that during my morning routine, I didn’t get a text or phone call from a customer, or someone I work with, looking to fulfill one of their needs.
I know what you’re thinking…
I sound like someone with a victim mentality, or just not taking responsibility for my circumstances? I can think of at least 3 Mentors and Coaches that would be quick to respond to this Post, telling me I attract this negative bull shit, because of my negative mental attitude.
And to that I would say, “No, it’s all good, I am just tired and need a vacation”.
Good, Bad, or Indifferent, this Blog Post is in-the-books and complete. I will probably regret Posting this tomorrow, or a couple tomorrows from now, but I feel better, and may sleep better, so it was worth it.
“I AM Whole, Perfect, Strong, Powerful, Harmonious and Happy!”
To Your Success,
Scott W. McAvoy
Scott, you are WHOLE, PERFECT, STRONG, POWERFUL, HARMONIOUS, AND HAPPY!!! From your blog rover friend John.
Thanks John – Appreciate you dropping a comment. I am clearer today.
An honest portrayal of what we all experience from time to time — thank you for the transparency, Scott!
Thanks Randy. Week 10 was my break-down to my break-thru. Sometimes, when it gets hard, I just want to go back to mediocre, but then I realize I am past that, and I don’t fit there anymore.